I realize I haven't posted in a little over a month, but I have been feeling bad about myself. After, joining that weight loss support group, I did well the first 2 weeks. I started going down hill after that, only because the admin of the group required us to post weekly pictures. Not only do I hate taking pictures, but I wasn't seeing any improvement. I didn't think posting a picture every week was helping me, in fact it was hurting me. If I couldn't see the difference when I am working my ass off, and sticking with in my calories, why do it at all, right? Finally, last week, I left that group. I have still been working out and eating well, well up until today. I weighed in and I had gained and not lost. I have been working out every day for 2 hours, and according to my fitness pal, I am burning almost 1,000 calories, and I am staying way below my calories for the day. I guess I am just a little depressed, and wondering if all of this is really worth it.
While in that group, I went from doing 2 hours of Sweatin to the Oldies, to walking 4 miles a day. I thought I was burning more calories, but I wasn't. With walking 4 miles a day I was burning almost 500 calories a day, and with the aerobics (low impact), I am burning almost 1,000. I have went back to the aerobics. With the aerobics I can do it from the comfort of my house, where no one else can say rude nasty things to me.
My pain and headaches have really gotten to me this weekend. I haven't had more than 4 hours of sleep in the last 2 days. I have also scrubbed my carpet, not with a shampooer, but with a scrub brush. I had a good workout doing that.
My insurance is officially switched, but I haven't received the insurance card yet. As soon as I get it I will try to get back into Dr. C as soon as possible. I will go in for surgery as soon as possible also.
