Day 2

Even though the first day seemed way to easy, I woke up with very sore legs and arms. Today I decided I needed to change up the challenge somewhat. My bladder cannot handle jumping jacks, so instead I ran in place, and for the push ups I am doing wall push ups.

I am getting more nervous about seeing the neurosurgeon in just a few weeks. I am afraid he's going to say he can't help me at all. But then there is the part of me that is so worn out, tired of pain, and sick of feeling sick and tired and can't wait to go see him.

I have had a constant migraine for the last week and 1/2 now. I just want someone to help me get rid of it and the insomnia I have.

New Challenge Day 1

It has been a very long stressful week. I wasn't sure if I actually was up to this challenge. I haven't been able to get rid of this horrible headache, neck, shoulder, hip pain. I haven't had any motivation and between home and work I am totally exhausted.

I have also been very rude lately. I am not sure if it's due to all the pain or if it's the lack of sleep. So when someone said I was just an overpaid babysitter, they didn't like my response. But any way....

Here is my new challenge, day 1 done!

No Motivation

 Lately I haven't had any motivation to get me started. On top of that I have been dealing with a horrible headache that has lasted now for about a week. Today it has gotten much worse to the point I am nauseated. While at my sister's house for dinner, I reached over and turned off Jake's phone, that was playing loud music. I probably pissed off a few people because they were all enjoying the music, but I just couldn't take it any more.

 I have found a new challenge that I will be starting hopefully tomorrow. I need to get back into this. I don't plan on getting on my bike for a while. I have had this horrible pain in my hip for the last 3 days. It hurts to walk.

Been Busy

I know it's been about 3 weeks since I posted. I am sorry I haven't posted but I have not only been busy but just not feeling like blogging. Since the last time I posted I had a very busy week. Jake is in FFA and raising a steer so last week was time to take it to fair: for weigh in, market show(which he won 2nd in this), showmanship, and auction. This started Tuesday and didn't end until Sunday. So, it was off to work by 7:15 am, after work it was up to the fair grounds, then not home until around 10:00 pm or later. I was totally exhausted!  Then the next week Henry was here and I hadn't seen him for over a month. I wasn't on the computer much at all.

I have been weighing in but nothing has changed. I am actually very surprised about that because I haven't been doing anything to help it out. I haven't exercised at all in 2 1/2 weeks, but I haven't gained a pound. I even put on some of my jeans last week and they weren't tight any more, they are actually a bit loose.

I plan on getting back on the "horse" next week.

I have had some days of not eating great. Like today I had a bad day at work, came home to my son doing something he shouldn't be at my house, then it was off to put gas in my car. While doing that I had a very rude man come up to and say some very inappropriate things. One of them hurt me so much. He said no man would want me do to my looks and my size. This shouldn't have really bothered me because I have been dating the same person for 3 years now, but it did. So I went to the store and bought a doughnut. I found myself yet again eating all my feelings. It is one thing that has been the hardest thing to change.

I have an official appointment with my neurosurgeon on November 4th. I can't say I have ever been scared and excited all at the same time in a long time.