Tired and Fed Up!!!!

 This has been a very hard week for me. Each day it has been harder and harder for me to get out of bed in the mornings. I haven't really slept much in weeks. I have been in so much pain, but I have been pushing through it. It seems like no one around me seems to care. Maybe I just don't complain enough, because I know how much I get sick of hearing them complain. Today my head is hurting so bad, as I am typing it's like every key I push is causing my head to pound along with my ears feeling very congested. My Ibuprofen or tamadol isn't doing anything for me.I wish I could be like others in my life who lays in bed and sleep all day. But, I am a single mom, who has to work and take care of myself and my son. I need this pain to go away and I really need some sleep.

 Another thing that is really bugging me is that no one around me is supporting my decision to lose weight. No only don't they support it, they are trying to sabotage it. My sister keeps offering me cake, and she's buying candy and giving to me. Yesterday I gave the candy to Jake but some I couldn't because it had peanut butter in it. I didn't eat it, I threw it away. I just wish they could see how hard I trying and support me.

 Even though I am feeling horrible, I have been working out regularly. Tonight I couldn't make it through the whole video but I did do 45 minutes of it.  

Weigh In April 27th

  I am having a very hard morning. I woke up with a very painful neck and back. It was hard walking first off too. I think it has something to do with this horrible windy, cloudy, rainy weather, along with my workouts. That probably explains why I am still in my pjs at 1:00 pm....oh well.  I also thought by the time this week was over I would feel more rested, but I feel more exhausted. I know I am not ready to return to work tomorrow. Only 29 more school days til summer vacation and 34 more days til surgery.

 I have to be honest about my food intake the last 3 days. I have been over eating, and eating things I shouldn't be. Last night my blood sugar was at 160 so I took a pill, which I haven't done in over 2 weeks. I was woken by a text and it had dropped to 60. I was feeling very ill and a little disoriented, so I had to eat to get it back up. I am going to try to stick to my diet so it doesn't do that again.

  Last night I finished the 30 day crunch challenge for the 2nd time. I haven't been doing great in the last week with workouts, because of having company til Monday, then Henry being here til Thursday. I do workout when he is here because that's just part of life. I didn't think that I would lose anything this last week but I did! I lost another 2 pounds. I am now at 218 pounds, and I also lost 2 more inches around my waist, it's now at 39 inches. Here is a picture of the scale this morning.

I know you guys can't tell but I can tell how I don't have all the rolls I use to have. I guess that is something that is upsetting to me is that Henry can be away for a month and come back and not notice that I have lost 24 pounds. I guess it should just be important for me to notice, which I do, because all of my clothes are bigger. I have to wear a belt with most of my pants now, and some of the shirts from last year are really big on me. I guess if I keep it up then one day they will notice.

Day 25 of the Crunch Challenge

 This has been a crazy week. Not only was work very stressful, but I ended up having company from Thursday to yesterday. Lets just say my workouts haven't been consistent due to company. However, I have managed to keep up with this challenge.

 Instead of weighing yesterday, I did it this morning. I can proudly say I am at 220 pounds. That is a loss of 22 pounds. I never thought that would happen. My waist is down to 41 inches, I do believe that started out at 52 inches, and my hips are down to 47 inches, that started out at 56/58 inches. I am shocked at how well I am doing and I hope this will continue. I have almost 2 months before surgery and hope I can take off another 20 pounds, before I have to stop working out for a while.

 I did something way out of my comfort zone this past week. On April 15th I shared a picture of my scale. I showed I weighed 222 pounds. That was my 20 pound weight loss milestone.

 Weight loss has always been a big struggle for me. No matter how I tried nothing seemed to help, then I would deal with some of my chiari symptoms and then give up. I know work through that pain, and push myself. I just have to do all my workouts in my home and quit when my body tells me I had to much. Another thing that has really helped is I don't do the diet thing. I eat less, but I don't deny myself anything. I don't just eat a bunch of crap. I do 3 days of healthy eating, then 1 day of whatever I want, but I don't overeat, then repeat, 3 days on 1 day off. This has been working great for me. Now if I can conquer the whole chiari thing.

Weigh In 4-13-14

 Well it's been a pretty good week. Work has been better so not to much stress there. I haven't slept much at all in this last week, I bet I got a whole ten hours in the whole week. My eyes are really showing it.

 The scale this morning showed I lost another pound. I guess I am ok with that, but wish all the work I am putting it really showed on the sale. I guess I will take every pound I can get.

 I am looking forward to surgery because maybe I won't have this horrible headache any more. I am also looking forward to the end of this next week, so I get a week off work.

 Sorry not to much to write because my mind is blank tonight.

Day 10 of the 30 Day Crunch Challenge

 I was so very shocked when I stepped on the scales this morning. According to the scale I lost 4 lbs. this week! That brings my weight loss so far to 18 lbs. I have also lost 2 inches around my waist, I am now have a 42 inch waist. I totally don't understand it because I have not eaten very well this week due to a lot of stress. Jake made chocolate chip cookies and to be honest I ate 4 of them after they came out of the oven. Other food choices haven't been the best either. I am however continuing to do my workouts.

 I have given Sweatin to the Oldies 2 another chance. I have even been doing all the floor work too. It includes a lot of crunches/sit ups adding up to approximately 64 or more, my mind has forgotten even though I counted them during the workout. I have again started the crunch challenge, I am up to day 10, which is 65 crunches. I find that pretty easy because I can do 50 without stopping.

 Something I would like to share is a picture. I put on a blouse I bought about a year ago, it fit just fine then. I put it on and I was almost swimming in it. It makes me so happy to put on my clothes and notice the difference, it also makes me sad to think how am I going to afford new clothes. But, I will figure it out somehow.